Everything Inside Me - Luke Cyr (43 Handicap)
Only in dreams does happiness shine
Strength of nightmare poisoning kind
Hope on awake that happiness find
Terrors of slumber were only in mind
Love lay inside me, imperfect in mass
On counted mistakes they’ve tripled in class
Feeding anger will sadden your day
Return to memories of laughter they say
At times most faults fall squarely on love
Critique made from horses high from above
Put aside anger that’s fueled by your soul
Embrace in your passion sent here on whole
Lord of thy making, has this plan for you
Stop fighting up hills with all that you do
Move to a space for you and your thoughts
Don’t poison your life and allow it to rot
This is a poem I wrote at the end of my treatment. I wrote this to remind me of the ups and downs of life. I always ignore the ups and always dwell on the downs. Each day there's going to be negatives. What I do is I try to ignore the negative and dwell on the 10 positive things that are laid there right before me.
You might be sitting there thinking there isn't any positives, there's only negatives. You are not alone. I used to think this way for 15, 16 years. What I do now is, when this happens, I turn and I think of friends and family and things I love to do. I'll send my friends and family ridiculous texts or memes or just something we could all laugh at together. I reach out to people all the time because when I'm interacting with people, I stay out of my head and all those awful sad feelings. Those that truly know me know that when I go silent, something is up and they spring into action.